Innocence seen UGH
if nude, swaddle acrylic
shame rendered NUDY
Strange sexual peace Restorative (Commanda R) Justice is my Sept 14, 2026 BIG art change for a nine year gift I’ve continually worked with ~ NUDY
Gravitas NEEDS to be reserved. (in the heart) Until worked with. Like the NOW misplaced, discarded, and un-heeded overuse of EPIC…You R Warned — EPIC implies death. My NUDY sourced from epic sex wrecked. My emo* meaning emotional hence #emodead not light-n-love. Humiliated walked into humility.
Feminists? HEED.
our emotional mistakes ignored from NOT listening into has made us prisoners and fools FAR BEYOND what privilege and power held by men has ravaged. Beyond us being a vessel for love, it’s about CAPACITY.
We need to dissolve patriarchy constantly. I will never turn my inner eye from that need. Yet what I didn’t heed for decades that I NOW KNOW? We have no consistent system: emo* processing of humiliation pertaining to public.
I show my body as it is in nude forms of art emotional rendering shame NUDY. This goes for all sex acts of mine committed ungracious.
Shame is held in by PATTERN of guilt (call it patriarchal or codependent.)
I have been laid low and wasted and said NO (over time) to more heedless suffering. yielded to NO more resisting of what was hurting me: dancing with the yes 2 holding YIN capacity. I won’t be blogging IN2 what YIN is. I barely understand it yet. So find my Insta mentor at this blog page’s end. Good luck.
WATCH YOUR PARTY TIMES WISELY my best restaurant boss often told us. Pam Ledbetter of WAHOO! a Decatur grill, thank you. Meaning, if you do not contemplate the greater aim of INDIVIDUAL WOMAN IN USA USING FREED VOICE TO CREATE PEACE ALONGSIDE WAR IN THE SPECIFIC VEIN WAR OF THE SEXES, SEXUAL PEACE AS ITS CALL, USE ONLY PEACE IF TOO DISQUIETED BECAUSE I UNDERSTAND, YEAH…watch your mind closely.
Your mind wants rational and linear to ease the discomfort. RESPECTED is your discomfort. We want men to not abuse, SO DO I SO DO NOT TRY TO SAY I DON’T – NEW THINGS DIE ALL THE TIME, THE DIFFERENT ARE ABUSED AND HATED, LOOK IN YOUR OWN FAMILY & CALL THEM 2 CHECK IN. My NUDY art is RE-INITIATING Sept 21st. Blog post to come.
Until then, please do feel my great appreciation for your willingness to become familiar with a NONLINEAR voice. I do not have a plan. I have a voice. I do not NEED a brand because I have a voice. A voice PUSHING UP. No one knows what happened until it is over. THXU to plans, brands, and linear. I am never, ever, ever against them OR YOU. I am for what I need. You are holding what I need in your precious hands ~ (((A)))
NUDY Beginning and Now Purpose: PROTECTED
August 17 ~ 2026
It took nine years to allow NUDY, hold this blog pen steady, and give these words to you.
I received the gift of NUDY through spontaneous, relaxed moment into surrender age 45 while dog sitting at a quiet kitchen table. A profound experience of pure light wiping away my thoughts of sex shame, what I now know is I have every right to publish my mature work.
Unlike my first major public writing (my pub book), I know you’re reading. This trip around the pen, I’m aware humility is something to hold.
This is what I’m holding: PROTECTED psyches for abused girls and women (all humans and animals included). I DO NOT diss my experience. My peace and justice volunteer work of decades alongside my own rape (Commanda R) psyche self-care has me RICHLY aware of the unspeakable.
I REFUSE TO STATE THE FOLLOWING WITHOUT SOME PSYCHE DISTANCE BECAUSE NO FEMALE VIOLATED NEEDS TO STAND TOO NEAR MY NUDY NOR HER ABUSER, EVER, FAWK THIS CHICK AND HER ART BLOG, I WOKE UP INTO MOTHER IN FEBURARY’26 AND I SHALL AND I HAVE PUT MY LIVING ART BODY & PSYCHE IN BETWEEN THE VULNERABLE AND THE DEMENTED ~ PROTECTED!!!! IN NUDY!!!!!!! (ONTO next paragraph)
You are on a strange nonlinear blog of a woman active walking-out from her WRETCH OF A MESS story that met one night of NO MEANS NO. Much less uncomfortable than a Commanda R kit. (Are you catching on? to Commanda R?) How many girls and women stuck in hell from men Commanda R porning them and do you know how to engage them? (my future work with NUDY)
DO you know how to say hello on a street, email or phone and be not totally sure how it’s going to go YET WILLING to be present with these women. women like me. THAT sentence I gave??? (revenge from men) is not my story. The messy, nonlinear 18-year Commanda R in me surfacing and asking for Restorative Commanda R justice is my story. NUDY swaddles all such stink and swipes COSMIC to *dance down offenses.
I appreciate your witness here ~ BECAUSE I went through with going public in nonlinear fashion, clarity is dancing through. stronger with every post and video I share to initiate a call. Because of this, yesterday I woke up to where I am not sharing the power ~ ~ ~ I don’t know about a bid as KNOWN artist, yet I do feel the sexual peace plank beginning to DROP as I allow such power to accumulate in my body. MESSENGER, mother. They carry.
I witness myself here and now ~ I am beginning to allow pure power. That is only love, only aligned, fierce AND gentle, corrective and illuminative. My honor to honor my dishonor of so many decades. *dancing down is here!
(((A)))
*dance down is what I say for all UGH things Commanda R ~ rape, war, the word for women as sling RHYMING with war/door, the words for domestic violence in all ways (my authentic is “inner domestic violence” that eventually led to DV with my live-in girlfriend). Thank you for your open mind. Good luck.
*Insta mentor for YIN @rhythmsofhealth and I’m sure I don’t know the impact yet of NUDY in my YIN ~ I’ll know as I go
